"I read so many short, easy things. I read the label on the shampoo
bottle, I read e-mail, I read the headings of all the top Google news
stories, I read magazines. And this gives me lots of practice for all my
short, easy thoughts: Turn left at the light. Bring a sweater. Add
salt. There’s nothing wrong with thoughts like these; the world would
collapse without them. But I also have longer, harder thoughts, ones
that I circle slowly, over months, years, my whole life probably. I
return again and again to the same irresolvable questions as I attempt
to share my life with another person, to be a good daughter, to be an
artist. These slow thoughts often catch me unawares, while turning left
or adding salt. I am startled, almost insulted to be reminded of my own
depths: This is unnecessary! I’m doing fine! I remembered to bring a
sweater! Books hold a place inside of me for the long thoughts. And they
also taught me how to think like that in the first place. Their slow
cadence, the commitment and silence they require, the way they endure
over generations—these are not easy qualities to locate in the world, or
in myself. And the best part is, unlike most roads to the unknown,
books aren’t conjured by prayer or devotion: They’re real, they’re
cheap, and they make a sound when you drop them."
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